Thank God for Progress

One of the things that is talked about a lot in the rooms of recovery is that we need to strive for progress, not perfection. It's not about becoming the perfect ideal of ourselves that should be our goal, instead, it's just that we continue to get better over time. Whatever that "better" means to …

Sometimes You Need a Full Stop

This time of year always seems to get me down. And 2015 isn't proving to be any different. This time it started a little bit early, September instead of October, and it has lasted longer. Despite all of the good things that are happening in my life, I have been depressed and anxious, with some PTSD …

Happiness, good things, and…anxiety?

Holy Cow!  It's been almost two months since I've posted!  I honestly had no idea it had been that long.  Don't worry, everything is ok, I'm still sober, still working the steps, and doing my best to practice the principles of AA in all of my affairs.  I have been working on my word-of-the-year, Connect, …

Gratitude – July 9

I have so many friends and acquaintances that tell me how hard it is for them to get to sleep, or stay asleep, or both.  Even my husband suffers from insomnia.  When I hear the stories about laying in bed, staring at the ceiling, with anxious thoughts swirling around in someone's head, I cannot relate …

Close your eyes at your own risk

I rarely have nightmares, but I have had anxiety dreams for as long as I can remember.  When I was younger, I would often dream about going somewhere, usually school, and realizing that I had no clothes on.  There is nothing more terrifying to a kid.  I would wake up in a panic and it …

Please let me off this ride

Last Thursday I was sitting and having lunch in the breakroom at work.  I was talking to a friend, when I started to feel funny.  I was just finishing a piece of pizza when I began to think that I might faint.  I have fainted before, every time I have to give blood, so I …

Happiness is…..what?

It's been a great day so far.  We went to our home group meeting this morning, came home and did our chores, and then took a nice long nap.  And now, mid-afternoon, we are enjoying a nice monsoon thunderstorm.  I love being able to open all the blinds and watch the rain pour down.  Not to …

Choices

Yesterday was quite a day.  The early morning went well, it seemed like a good start.  Then, on the way to work, everything hit the fan.  The details aren't really relevant, so I won't write about them.  Suffice it to say, there were a couple of hours that were pure chaos, drama, flashbacks to the …